happy

here i am

there you are

BIG M

its a strawberry milk kind of day.
and my name is Big M.

Be B there

in the blackness

trying to light the BBQ

up on the balcony

above the  bitumen

riding my bike 

carried on the balmy breeze 

i heard you!

is it your friends' birthday too?!

out of the skuy came a white...

hey you

i caught a 

feather today

way up above 

me

whilst i was

pushing my pedals

it was 

amazing

and now right now my friend del watered her fone

and i left mine behind

but it was nothin like 

holding then

lettin go of the feather!

aaahhh!

Whispers tight

this man
came to the house
with my uncle.
My mother
beckoning me
to the other room
clasping me
whispering
she has a bad feeling about that man
she tried to shake it
it won't go away
she told his friend
her brother
i told my mother
he is a born again
brain washed
dangerous are the ones
that don't think for themselves
then the brother uncle and
his friend
left.
All back to normal
the house again.
until
the keys to the garage
where found to have left too.
But none of us know where
not the mother
or the grandmother
or the uncle
or me
we did not ask the friend
Later my mother
whisphering
again but different
tucking me into bed
'i made your lunch
for work tomorrow'
smile
warm tight sleep love
xx

girls get together

Making a pass the parcel for Rachaels picnic in the park today.

Its my Nana's Birthday today!

I am going to drink some sparkling and hit some shuttle cock!

murder bloody murder

Roy Springham, a man i went to university with and knew was murdered in Rockhampton last week.  

R.I.P 

Pork!

house holidaying

i am house sitting in Prahan.  Its a beautiful house.  

Brooke is visiting and we are having ups of tea in the garden amongst the blooming orchards.  

took my friend Erik out for Beltane on Friday night.  i have a big scratch on my bum from falling out the window into the garden.  What better way to fall into summer but into the garden.

marching to a new band

i have a new music love.......listen.

The FUGS.

here is a quote.....'from now on nothing holds us back. cacaphony forever. No stopping.'

Yes that is they way they misspelt that wonderful word.

so come jump on the bandwagon! 

job

i asked the buddy to please stop whinging on my first day.  And went and made her a cup of tea to think about and action my request. 

Fairley good

Brookes play that she wrote is on at the carlton courthouse - melbourne writers theatre are putting it on.  its is on until 11th october.  We are going thursday night...........

its is part of the melbourne fringe festival 08

i think the whole night is called playspotting here is more info

i hate tv

i absolutely abhor television at the moment.

it is torture sitting there staring at the outside cause the stuff on the screen is manure.

i think i have spring fever.....play outside, welcome the flowers and watch everyone smile and shine with blossoming springness.  

Oliver says that everyone is 47% better looking in spring and summer....

last night

i went to the theatre and say CYMBELINE directed by John McManus.  Go go go, it was a great piece of shakespeare.  All the actors are stunning its on at fortyfivedownstairs.

BIG BANG MACHINE

GENEVA ----The Large Haden Collider was started today. A big machine.
My grandmother was a little scared....."what if we are all sucked into a black hole"...the sensational 'scums' (herald sun) doing.

Atom smashing! Wow... Steming from THE BIG BANG THEORY.
Well we might be heading back to the middle ages...oh sorry the dark ages... or just being sucked back into the birthing canal where we supposedly all came from....then could we possibly all be reborn again. I hear the Christians stirring!

The scientist (and others) who created this machine are eager to know more about Dark Matter.
I assume 'matter' is a particular physical substance that you can can break up. Things made of Atoms.
So does that rule out our thoughts? As they are not made up of actual physical matter? Or are they?

Dark Matter?
Now what does remind me of? Um Dust, the fantasty novel called the "Golden Compass" or something of the sort. Loved this series when i was young....nearly everyone else was reading the most proper and boring brainless "The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe".

OUT with the old in with the....Smilee

I have kicked my super ego out and went to a 2 years old birthday party to celebrate. Funtastic!

I have kicked my ego out as the guy i have been casually doing does not want me to hang out with him on his birthday.

Now its just me....i feel kinda free!

see sea

i have met some many accents
tasted so many coconuts
breathe so much salt air
i have discover one of my heavens
okay
special
price
hello
massage

thailand phi phi krabi
tomorrow phuket ( kindly pronounced fuckit)
copcooncar.

all over red rover

The play is finished and i am supposed to be fishing @ hinchinbrooke. But the rain has not stopped bucketting down since arriving here. So.... i have completed a 1500 piece jigsaw puzzle, bed trampolined acrobatics, extension cord skipping (ouch this hurts when barefoot) and sat gazing and listening to the hugest raindrops from heaven.
Any suggested activities welcome...

photographs

i just bought a polaroid camera in mint(a) condition for $2

vertabrae by vertabrae

One of the actors has seriously hurt her back and we don't have an understudy... sorry but i have to swear...FUCK! I mean seriously she cannot move...so we have to re-block her scenes today for the preview tomorrow....
the director has a bad back.....
the other actors husband has a degenerative spine condition.
My grandmother has curvature of the spine.
Its all related some bloody how!

So, everyone is walking around on megawatty pain killers heat packs (not jet packs), and all i can do is help them out of their chairs, put their socks on for them and !!Fanatically Scream the Back plague is coming, run for your lives!!! I would much prefer to have a long stiff drink...but someone has to keep it together and be the back bone of the production....alas, i am holding off on that Long long island tea until THAILAND!

the view in to her

Slumping over the apple whilst waiting for the journalist to come and interview me.
Hung up on that word i-n-t-e-r-v-i-e-w, i belive its because i am exhausted. I tend to close up with that word as it sounds clinical and too personal. I mean for one to be viewed interly by a complete stranger. Lets hope i make a new friend.....
Last night i saw Bell's Shakespeares production of "As you like it". One of my favourites from Willy, but really what was John thinking... Directors do date, they need to know when their time to sit this one out and wait till they are back in fashion to arise again. It was a mixed bag of lollies with no true commitment to one concept. "let it be" beatles song is the background music for this thought. Although there were some talented actors...one in particalur but i only caught his first name...Julian.
Journalist here, time to bare some minta to a complete stranger.....